I felt like I had to update my journal again,
I don't know why myself.

anyway,
Since school started, I began to feel more and more an emotional wrack.
It is just, I'm pushing away my emotions, trying to act like I'm perfectly fine.
After Abunai 2009, there are only a handful of people I still thrust with whole my heart. but only one of them I'm able to visit often enough to ease my feelings.

I think I need time to take everything that happened.
In my eyes, most of my actions are partly my fault. I took all of the blame on me. I said sorry. If people accept it or not, is their problem.
I always tell my mentor about these things, she agreed on my actions and told me the way I acted was good. that even a person without autism would had have problems with that situation.

in a few days, it is halloween,
I'm still thinking what to wear. right now, I have 2 options in mind:

organisation 13 cloak with maybe night-elf ears and eyebrows. ^.^

or

Halloween Ichimaru Gin

next point on my agenda, the Arcom meet.
I'm busy finishing my Fujimaru Kudo cosplay.
I'll be sleeping the whole weekend with my friend in Nijmegen.
if possible, we're going to the movie together

there are a few more things I wanted to type here, but in my head, it sounds a bit to personal to tell.

see you later!
and please reply!